Starting the support raising process has been an incredible test of faith. Realizing that an entire year’s worth of income is going to be solely based on other people is honestly pretty frightening. The possibilities of what could go wrong are endless, yet somehow run through my mind as if they are already a reality. What’s been the most encouraging is the shift in perspective that by God’s grace is settling into my heart and mind.
Notice my comment above, saying how my income is going to be “solely based on other people”. Well, guess what – wrong perspective! My income my come through people, but the source of my provision will be from God. This is no different than any other career; regardless of the channel that your income flows through, ultimately it is the Lord who is providing for you and caring for you. Support raising is undoubtedly a unique expression of that provision; an interesting reality is present where God provides only through the faithfulness of his people – both parties, God and man, functioning in their respective roles to accomplish God’s will. This paradigm of God’s provision through his people’s faithfulness doesn’t downplay the importance of and my thanks to those who are supporting me; I just need to keep reminding myself (and wanted to share with you) that God is ultimately our provider.
One of my favorite verses that speaks to God’s authority and involvement in even the ordinary details of our lives comes from Acts 17.
“And he made from one man every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, having determined allotted periods and the boundaries of their dwelling place, that they should seek God, and perhaps feel their way toward him and find him.” – Acts 17:26-27
I love that this verse speaks to God being intimately involved in the lives of his children, accomplishing his perfect will while at the same time leaving choices and decisions in our hands.
This means that for me, in my situation right now, I know that God already has a plan laid out in front on me. I don’t have a blind faith – I have a faith in a God that has proven himself to be faithful over and over and over again, not only in my life, but in the lives of many other people I know. So, is it crazy to expect a year of income to come from the generosity of others? Maybe. But not with my God.